A break from Rhiannon McVee

I have been off the air for a while, and a lot of you have been wondering about the long break between updates. I have been avoiding putting words down after a family tragedy which is taking me a long time to process.

From the day I published Write About Me in 2013 and embarked on a very public search for Ursula, I used writing as a coping mechanism for all the trauma happening behind the scenes. Escaping into the worlds of my fictional characters in the Rhiannon McVee crime series kept my real emotions on the surface and I could easily pretend that what was going on in the real world wasn’t real! But after losing my precious Dad, who was my biggest fan of my books and everything else I did, I have done everything I can to avoid dealing with my emotions. Initially when I was caught up in the love bubble of his beautiful memorial celebration I had a mad weekend of writing as I felt like I couldn’t waste another minute of my life, but then nothing. Every time I’ve sat down to write the Rhiannon McVee crime series or the new crime novel I’ve started, the words won’t come.

I’ve spent a lot of time in the remote outback, also reading, listening to podcasts, doing Sudoko puzzles, listening to music, walking, catching up with friends and being with my family. I’ve also taken a gazilliion photos of big skies. I can’t take the credit for this one though, my husband took it and it’s gone into the book cover contenders folder!

This week I seemed to turn a corner and some of the fog has lifted. Rhiannon McVee and Mac have returned into my head to hang out with me, and my new character who started off as Bunny, then changed to Bridie, has also returned. She has returned as Bunny so I’m going to go with it for now and who knows! I have two partly written books and after I finish this update, I’m going to open one and see what is in store for me, and ultimately for all of you!!

Senses on fire: what Helen Garner helped me understand about my writing

One thing the outback does is clears my mind of all the clutter. I have time to think, I am not scrolling through social media or getting caught up in the craziness of everyday life. I listen to birds, watch the sun come up, watch the sun go down and notice tiny details. Most importantly, I am inspired to write…

In the air-conditioned tractor cab while my husband sweats through another forty-five degree day on the post driver, highly lauded Australian author Helen Garner reflects on decades of searching for perfect sentences in her 80th birthday podcast episode.

Oops! I forget to lift the driver before I move forward another seven metres and I lose track of Garner for a few seconds, distracted by the exuberant hand gestures in my rear vision mirror. Back on the line, I slide my finger back a minute or two so I don’t miss one single word of Helen’s.

She lights a flame and my senses are on fire. I can’t wait to swap the GPS and tractor wheel for my keyboard. I’ve always been an observer of small things but Garner makes me appreciate the power observation gives me as a writer.  It is left to me to capture moments, landscapes and places very few people are privileged enough to see.

Dragonflies dance millimetres from the surface, while life-sucking carp feast greedily to create bubbles that spread from beneath and muddy the waters.

A yellow belly vies for position, determined to survive amongst the river-invading carp who breed like rabbits in the flush of flood waters that have spent months snaking their way across what is usually a parched landscape.

Bright white spoonbill ibis circle overhead, cussing in a deep throaty tune at human intrusion on their sacred place.

Birdsong from hundreds of tiny robins and rare bush birds fill ancient eucalypts that line the banks. The closer we get to the long concrete weir that stretches from one side of the remote river to the other, they’re barely audible above the hypnotising roar of water.

It is easy to picture Aboriginals gathering in this sacred place, feasting from the rich food and water source that nourished them for thousands of years.

Yabbies the size of crayfish.

Rock skimming amusing us for hours.

Now all I need to do is insert a body floating over this isolated weir and I’m well on my way to my next plot twist. Watch this space!

Confession time, I didn’t achieve all my 2022 writing goals

I don’t know about you, but as I get to this time of year I feel a level of exhaustion I can hardly describe! Also some panic for the many things I had hoped to do during the year which I didn’t…including finishing writing another crime novel. *sigh*

Confession time. I haven’t achieved my writing goals and I have lacked writing motivation. I have three books on the go. One is finished and written as a memoir but I’m in the process of turning it on its head and using it as a backdrop to another crime fiction novel. The other is the next book in my Rhiannon crime mystery Series and I’ve got writer’s block about halfway through. The third is a very well planned out crime fiction novel set in the outback but the writing has been slow. I’m up to Chapter 3 and I’m loving where it’s going, but I have had such limited time for writing that it’s been challenging to maintain momentum. I’m definitely looking forward to a fresh start in 2023 on all fronts, including being a motivated writer!

I have just completed a fabulous writing workshop with Nadine Davidoff, a brilliant book editor in Australia, as the first step towards dedicating more time to my writing goals rather than trying to squeeze it in around everything else. It was so helpful and I am definitely inspired. All I need now is to be a motivated writer and FOCUS!

Knowing that you have all received a myriad of correspondence in this busy time of year, I will keep this short and take the opportunity to wish you all a safe and happy festive season. I know it is also a difficult time for many people, especially for those who are having their Christmas after losing someone special in their life and those who have experienced extreme trauma through a natural disaster or personal challenge. I am sending extra kindness to you all.

Perhaps you might find some solace and joy in a great book, which is always my go to and escape tool in times of great stress and anxiety. If you follow me on Instagram you might have noticed on my stories I’ve been sharing some of my favourite books, there are so many wonderful books out there, if you have any recommendations please send them my way!

Melissa x

The cowboy stories on screen that inspire me

I’ve spent the past few weeks immersed in Yellowstone in anticipation of the Season 5 launch, which is probably time I should have spent writing my next crime fiction novel, so you can blame Rip!
I love a good Western and escape from reality, as much as I love a good crime movie or series. Some of my favourite cowboy movies are:
  • Billy the Kid inspired – Young Guns 1 & 2, Old Henry
  • Clint Eastwood – The Mule, Unforgiven
  • Sweet Country, The Proposition, 3:10 to Yuma, True Grit
  • The Homesman
  • Open Range
  • Tombstone (Val Kilmer is brilliant as Doc Holliday)
  • I also love No Country for Old Men even though it terrifies me from the moment it starts!
This is only a very small sample, I’d better get my day started and spend more of my time writing about Rhiannon McVee and her cowboy Mac and less of my time watching westerns!
*Image of RIP sourced on Google after a search for Yellowstone RIP images

Soggy spring provides outback crime novel inspiration

In Australia it’s been raining. A lot. The impact has been devastating for many communities, and I am among those who have been significantly impacted. But if there is one thing I’ve learnt having grown up on the land and living a big part of my life in rural Australia – you can’t control the weather.

However, you can use it for inspiration in your next crime novel.

I am taking my sweet time with the new crime fiction novel which Candice Fox and I planned on a napkin during the Sisters in Crime festival weekend, and it’s a whole new experience for me. Despite being tempted to launch in and write randomly every spare moment I have, I am holding onto the incredible opportunity of being around seven of Australia’s top crime writers for a whole weekend (for those who are new, check out my website for the full story). Even though Sulari Gentill seems to be able to write brilliant books as a ‘pantser’, I’m determined to change my approach and put the time into figuring out what is going to happen and when. It’s already made a big difference to how the story is evolving, and I’m finding plot holes and fixing them before I’m knee deep in them!

Forget dry dusty outback scenes, this crime novel will show a whole other side of the Australian outback in flood.

Although water is life and people in these far-flung Australian landscapes have lived through more droughts than they’d care to remember, there are so many devastating and heartbreaking stories that are not being told in the news from this flood so I will be using these as inspiration in my narrative. Like the family who have not been able to return to their home for several months because the roads are cut off by floodwaters, only to discover when a neighbour flew over in a helicopter that their beautiful homestead which they had been hoping was spared was under water. Then having to wait for goodness knows how long for the water to recede to go in an assess the damage.

Or the families who haven’t left their remote properties in months and are getting groceries and mail via helicopter, and are spending their days waist deep in water trying to save their livestock while dead animals float by. Whole towns are cut off, entire crops have been wiped out, and all the rural businesses who rely on being able to move around and get from here to there have ceased trading.

All the while watching the skies and wishing it would stop bloody raining!

Please don’t despair though, there are flood stories that will warm your heart and give you faith in humanity again – but then again, it is a crime novel so be prepared for a plot twist you didn’t see coming!

Crime writers are funny! Sisters in Crime Sapphire Coast

What do you do when you want to hang out with Australia’s best crime writers?

You invite them to your home town and organise a festival so everyone gets to enjoy their company!

And what everyone discovered was that crime writers are funny!

Sisters in Crime festival, Sapphire Coast style.

I attended a 2016 Sisters in Crime Convention in Cobargo and loved it so much I just had to get them back!

The idea started with a conversation on Twitter after devastating bushfires impacted Cobargo. Plans were stalled for a couple of years, but we were determined to make it happen in 2022!

Candice FoxVikki PetraitisSulari Gentill, Fleur FerrisIlsa EvansProfessor Caroline de Costa, and Dorothy Johnston were part of the weekend, organised by myself with support from South East Arts, Well Thumbed Books, and Sisters in Crime Australia.

Sadly one of our authors, Kay Schubach, had to cancel her attendance at the last minute, and we send our sincere condolences for the loss of her father on the weekend.

We really missed her but I am planning the next festival and she will be there will bells on!

Sulari, Dorothy, Vikki, Melissa, Fleur, Ilsa, Dorothy and Candice. Photo by Sulari

The festival included a full day of panels and in-conversations at the Cobargo School of Arts and writing workshops in Merimbula.

People came from all over to attend including one aspiring writer who flew from Sydney for a half an hour speed date with Candice!

Around 100 people packed the Cobargo Hall, and we also live-streamed this around the world.

The lively panel discussions thrilled the audience because the simple fact is, crime writers are funny!

Candice Fox offered 30-minute speed dates on Saturday and Sunday, with Sydney writer Erica Adamson flying to Merimbula for the weekend to attend.

Thank you Candice, you inspired so many writers with these sessions! Bestselling YA author and screenwriter Fleur Ferris also ran a sold-out workshop on Sunday which again, inspired so many writers (including me!). 

The hall in Cobargo has something very special about it, from the beautifully catered curry lunch by the hall committee and Well Thumbed Books (including their famous egg sandwiches), to the enthusiastic audience which included people who attended the first Sisters in Crime event in 2016.

The Sisters want to make this an annual event and there is keen interest from South East Arts to bring more crime writers to the region as part of the Headland Writers Festival.

I’d like to say a big thank you to everyone who was part of the weekend, especially these incredible women who have such depth and experience in crime storytelling.

Candice Fox in Cobargo. Photo by Sulari Gentill

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Melissa Pouliot book wall at Collins Booksellers

My very own book wall!

I dropped into my local bookstore Collins Merimbula to buy some new books and was over the moon to discover they have created a ‘book wall’ for me. A whole wall, face out, just for my Missing Series (Write About Me & FOUND) plus my Detective Rhiannon McVee Series (Find Me, When You Find Me, You’ll Never Find Me & Search for Sky).

When first starting out as a self-published author I put a lot of time, energy and effort into getting my books onto shelves in bookstores, and had so many terrible experiences with booksellers who weren’t interested in my books one bit! I left several bookstores in tears and felt like I was a complete failure as an author.

Instead of giving up, I just directed all my energy into the booksellers that believed in me from day one, including Collins Booksellers Merimbula. They have always had my books on their shelves, come along to book launches to sell my books and recommend me to people who come into their store looking for a new book.

As in every aspect of life, you need to believe in yourself. After that first round of rejections I continued to self-publish my books and Search for Sky, released in February 2022, is my sixth. I regularly sit in the Collins Merimbula Top 10 books and am so proud to be a self-published author. I am now working on my 7th novel and I have people like everyone who works in Collins Merimbula to thank for keeping me motivated and inspired. I am blessed they are so passionate and supportive of my writing, THANKYOU!!

How long is forever?

Time.

Alice: “How long is forever?”

White Rabbit: “Sometimes, just one second.”

Time is something I have always wished I could stop, even just for a moment, to help me catch my breath. Time is something I always try and use wisely, however, lately I feel like I’ve been running up a hill chasing time. Running has never been my strong point. My obsession with time is fuelled by some sadness over the past few months, and losing special people in my life who ran out of time way too young. It’s a double edged sword; you want to make the most of every moment, appreciate that you are fit, healthy and have a happy, fortunate life…but then again, losing someone you love alters your perspective and time slips away, days, weeks, months, and you wonder where it has gone and what you have done with it.

“Now here, we mostly have days and nights two or three at a time, and sometimes in the winter we take as many as five nights together — for warmth, you know.” The Red Queen

Sitting down to give you a book update after so much time has passed (was it really Easter since I have been in touch?!) I actually have used some of my time wisely and have passed the 20,000 word mark in my new novel which is the fifth instalment of the Detective Rhiannon McVee crime fiction series. This is a milestone to celebrate, it’s one third of a book! My goal is to publish in September, and you should all hold me to that!

I had my media career mapped out, then life had other plans

When I was in my mid 20s I was at the top of my game in my journalism career, working in a newspaper newsroom I loved. I thrived on the high pressure in a regional tri-weekly paper with a shrinking workforce and punched out my goal of ten stories a day, often more.

I got married, pregnant, and had my future all mapped out.

I wasn’t going to take the 12 months maternity leave, I was only taking six weeks off. The year was 1999. Our newsroom had one computer with an email address and invested in a laptop – it was cutting edge technology of its time. The plan was for me to keep working from home and send in my 10 stories a day, given that I would have all this spare time.

When I started to find it too hard to sit at my desk in the newsroom all day with my puffed up feet, aching back and oversized belly, and the 50-minute drive each way to work found me almost falling asleep at the wheel on the way home, I tested the working from home scenario.

The flexibility of being able to write at 4am when I couldn’t sleep, or have a rest in the early afternoon when my body protested the most, then work through until 9pm was perfect. Without the travel at the start and end of each day, I could keep up with the washing, the house was clean and tidy. Work-life balance was in perfect harmony.

Along came a baby.

I’d read about the effects of sleep deprivation but I don’t think you fully understand until you’re amongst it. My sharp brain that loved a deadline became sluggish and when I sat down at the computer to write, the words wouldn’t come.

It was in the days when the funeral director would give us the contact details of family members of people who had died and we would write their obituaries. I would dissolve into tears and be a blubbering mess during these interviews, now that I had brought a new life into the world and feared death in a way I’d never feared it before.

When one of my work colleagues, who was in the front office and answered the phone and never tired of baby news as she approached her wedding date, died in a car accident on her way to work, my perspective shifted even more.

I hated the way my colleagues in the newsroom reported her accident. I was furious when management offered no counselling to our photographer who turned up on scene after hearing about it on the police scanner, not realising who it was until he recognised her car.

Although it was exactly the same way we all wrote, and exactly the same way we all dealt with the daily trauma stories we covered in the 1990s, I lost my enthusiasm for being part of that ‘hard news’ cycle .

Fate stepped in, as it tends to do when we’re standing at crossroads we don’t even know we’re at, and at the age of 27 with a six month old baby, I started my own media business.

I did this by accepting an opportunity I had initially refused, to become a media consultant for a government organisation. I got to write stories about planting trees, surveying and preserving habitat native animals like platypus and malleefowl, doing river and wetland restoration work and organising community events that brought people together to talk about nature and the environment we lived in. No trauma stories, no death knocks, no court reporting.

From a practical point of view, I can’t believe I initially said no. I could work half the hours for the same money. I could work when I wanted, where I wanted.

I stepped into a whole new world and I loved it. When word got around, I never had any shortage of work and I registered my business name mp|media solutions.

Twenty-two years later I’m still working for that same client, and I am forever grateful for them for changing the course of my life. I have many other clients too, and two more children, and moved my business from inland Australia to my dream location on the coast.

I have created my own mini-newsroom where I get to write, tell and produce stories about the things I love. The environment, the circular economy, small business, farming, innovation and my favourite topic of all – people and the fascinating lives they live.

Have I found the perfect work-life balance? Some days yes, many days no. But that’s a story for another day!

*Image of the glamour of life as a career Mum, where as many hours are spent at the sink as on the computer.

Working from home series: Productivity

This week my conversations with clients getting used to working from home, many of them with children who are adjusting to schooling from home, have centred on productivity. Here are a few simple things I’ve learnt over the past 20 years that help keep me ‘productive’ in my home office:

  • Set a routine and accept that this might not be the same as what you’re used to. Do what works in your household, and don’t forget to take breaks!
  • Turn your phone over so you don’t see every single notification. Every time you look at your phone it interrupts your concentration and reduces productivity.
  • Turn your phone to silent and put it on vibrate for when it rings. You might miss a call or two but that’s what voicemail is for.
  • Make a list of 6 things to get done in your day, it’s more realistic to achieve 6 things than a long list of everything.
  • Consider altering the number of hours you work. When you’re in a workplace you have interruptions and distractions so even if you’re at work 8 hours a day that doesn’t mean you’re solidly working for 8 hours. At home, with less distractions, you are more productive so you can get more done in less time.
  • Be kind to yourself. If you can’t sit at your computer for 40 hours a week, that’s okay. Prioritise and do what you can.